Jake...

So, Jake and I aren't getting back together. He likes someone else. I'm not happy about it but I am going to pretend to be happy for him. My feelings don't matter where other people are involved. I don't care about me I really only want him to be happy and not feel like he made me sad or depressed even though he did but I guess I'll get over it. Everyone else does right? I'll get through it one way or another. I am just getting to know myself so I am really confused right now but I'll get through it.

Jake...again

So, Jake and I broke up after two months of going out but he says he still loves me and that he still wants to go out with me and stuff but he says that he just wants to be a kid and stuff and besides his parents really really don't like me and he says that if they know that he had gone out with different people and had played the field a little that they would be more accepting of me and so i agreed and we broke up although, to tell you the truth we had hung out with his best friend Mike and quite honestly, I think that Mike influenced Jake to break up with me. But Jake claims he still loves me and I know that I am still in love with him so I guess it's ok and Jake says that we are definitely going to get back together. I am not positive that I believe him but whatever. Anyways, that's really all I had to say.

Jake...

I am in love. I love Jake all the way. I love how he is and I love his personality. He is just awesome. I also love his voice. It's so comforting! Ok, so yesterday when I went to dance I was like, no very good. I had no energy whatsoever and then I realized that it was because I hadn't talked to Jake on Tuesday or Wednesday night. I talk to him almost every night. He just makes me so happy! So then when I talked to him last night I was way tired but it was still really nice to hear his voice. Then, this morning I had dance practice at six and since I talked to him last night I was like almost hyper! And I did really good on the routine and my spins (which is good for me because I am really bad at spinning!) and now we are ready for our performance tomorrow night! Well, I love you Jake. For whenever you read this and I hope I see you soon! :)

Our last dance!

It's so sad! This is going to be our last dance! Mostly because Sonia and her husband are going on a mission so they have to sell the building...but for the floorshow we are going to do the gold Cha-Cha! I am so totally excited! We have lifts and drops and dips and spins and all the fun stuff that comes with open coreographing! I really wish that Jake could come but of course he has school. I lost a bet the other day and now Jake gets to read my journal *scowl*...I guess I will just have to make a new one. An improved one...even though the dance is going to be fun, I really really hate getting up at 5:20 to practice! One of the drops, we had to do over and over and over again! It totally killed the one leg muscle! I think I pulled it...not sure but it hurts! I started following Robert today! WOO-HOO! Robert is funny on his blog!

Been a while!

Haha it's been a while! Well tonight is the Homeschool Prom and I am pretty excited to go! I am going to wear a green floor-length dress that is super pretty. O ya, by the way I am going out with this awesome boy from Utah. He is so sweet but he can't come down for prom which is a total bummer. Originally, he was going to but his parents ended up saying no, and seeing as how he can't drive yet he kind of needed his parents to say yes in order to come. So, I am going to Prom without a date which is fine with me! Last night my brother finally got the courage to ask a girl to Prom so he has a date and most of my other friends have dates but not me! I think it's weird to go with a date anyways. So I have been totally sucking at school lately, although I am not quite sure why! I really hate the online school though, I really prefer either homeschool or private! I think that I might go to a private school next year! I am pretty darn excited! Well, I will probably update either tomorrow or Monday about the dance, so anticipate it!

Surprise!

Surprise Surprise! I have a valentine! Yay! An plus I bought the cutest dress for the valentines ball (keyword BALL) but it is a strapless black number so I have to go into town to get a shrug or something because I am not about to wear an immodest dress to the dance of the year! I am not sure what to get my valentine though! I was thinking about chocolates and a kiss on the cheek or something like that so ya but I am super excited for it! I don't quite know how to do my hair though...I have some ideas but I don't think they would look right with the dress...maybe I'll just put it up somehow...well anyway, I will keep filling you in about everything anyway bye!

Birthday!

Yay! I am fourteen!!! My birthday was yesterday and I got three pairs of cute earrings and two bracelets and a necklace. I am also going to get a video camera but the store didn't ship it in time for my birthday so we are going to check on it and I will post a video of me on here as soon as I can. Right now we are trying to sell our puppies, sometimes I get so frusterated because no one wants to buy them but they are purebred Icelandic Sheepdog and they are super adorable but I guess it's their loss if they don't want a puppy! They are all super sweet and we have three mellow ones and one super-high-energy-bouncing-off-the-walls type puppy and one in between super duper smart puppy who gets out of every fence that we have but is super awesome and will be perfect for someone who is up for a challenge. She is very independent and the rest like to be with someone all the time but she is fine by herself. She just needs a secure fence! Anyway, that's all that I have time for! But I will certainly post as soon as I have anymore news! BTW there is a valentine's dance that I am super excited about and I can't wait for it! (Not that I am going to have a valentine but that's ok!)

The New Year's Dance

The dance was a BLAST!! It was so much fun! ok so we did freestyle swing for our performance and it was so cool because we were going all over the place!! So then Celeste and I tried to walk over to the Hart Building where the other lamo dance was being held but we couldn't find it because it was dark and we thought we knew where it was but we obviously didn't because we never found it...then we were linking arms because it was cold and we were sort of scared, anyway, Celeste slipped and so did I because we were hooked onto each other and when Celeste fell her knee hit a really sharp patch of ice and she cut her knee o[en and blood was running down her lag and even though it looked really gross it looked even worse when it didn't have the blood running down her leg!! Anyway we got back to the studio just in time for my performance I had about five minutes to get ready and get my makeup done and be downstairs holding the arm of my partner and ready to go onto the stage which normally takes me about half an hour to do. So when I was finally ready I was sort of late and we were just about to walk on but I made it in time. And then I was wearing a pink dress that my friend lent me but it was really hurting my neck so I changed into another one which was way cute! I really enjoyed this dance and the next one is the Valentine's Dance which Joseph promised to be at so I am counting on that he is there. He owes me a dance!! I hope that for that performance we can do a real Swing that is organized with a jelly roll and a windmill and everything!! Well, that's all I have for today but I will post again soon!