Jake...

So, Jake and I aren't getting back together. He likes someone else. I'm not happy about it but I am going to pretend to be happy for him. My feelings don't matter where other people are involved. I don't care about me I really only want him to be happy and not feel like he made me sad or depressed even though he did but I guess I'll get over it. Everyone else does right? I'll get through it one way or another. I am just getting to know myself so I am really confused right now but I'll get through it.

Jake...again

So, Jake and I broke up after two months of going out but he says he still loves me and that he still wants to go out with me and stuff but he says that he just wants to be a kid and stuff and besides his parents really really don't like me and he says that if they know that he had gone out with different people and had played the field a little that they would be more accepting of me and so i agreed and we broke up although, to tell you the truth we had hung out with his best friend Mike and quite honestly, I think that Mike influenced Jake to break up with me. But Jake claims he still loves me and I know that I am still in love with him so I guess it's ok and Jake says that we are definitely going to get back together. I am not positive that I believe him but whatever. Anyways, that's really all I had to say.

Jake...

I am in love. I love Jake all the way. I love how he is and I love his personality. He is just awesome. I also love his voice. It's so comforting! Ok, so yesterday when I went to dance I was like, no very good. I had no energy whatsoever and then I realized that it was because I hadn't talked to Jake on Tuesday or Wednesday night. I talk to him almost every night. He just makes me so happy! So then when I talked to him last night I was way tired but it was still really nice to hear his voice. Then, this morning I had dance practice at six and since I talked to him last night I was like almost hyper! And I did really good on the routine and my spins (which is good for me because I am really bad at spinning!) and now we are ready for our performance tomorrow night! Well, I love you Jake. For whenever you read this and I hope I see you soon! :)

Our last dance!

It's so sad! This is going to be our last dance! Mostly because Sonia and her husband are going on a mission so they have to sell the building...but for the floorshow we are going to do the gold Cha-Cha! I am so totally excited! We have lifts and drops and dips and spins and all the fun stuff that comes with open coreographing! I really wish that Jake could come but of course he has school. I lost a bet the other day and now Jake gets to read my journal *scowl*...I guess I will just have to make a new one. An improved one...even though the dance is going to be fun, I really really hate getting up at 5:20 to practice! One of the drops, we had to do over and over and over again! It totally killed the one leg muscle! I think I pulled it...not sure but it hurts! I started following Robert today! WOO-HOO! Robert is funny on his blog!